Runaway Heartache

Dear blog,

How i wish i could run away to Perth. I'm willing to rip it off of my heart n gave it to someone else. It's been hurting me since not even him, understand my feelings. It's hard for me to tell. But i tried to. He understands, but maybe he didn't realize that he still do it the same mistakes. He did something that i slight don't like it. And i was heartbroke. Yes, i am jealous. It's an obvious for having relationship here. It's the same thing as what you felt if someone text me, & asked what does he wants? & he has the jealousy type as well. But i still cant understand why. :'( i wished, i want, & i hope, that he knows how my feelings were. Even i had enough understanding his. Dear blog, what should i do? I cant just let my heart have scars that won't heal. :'( I just love him so much. Please my god, write this in my heart. So if one day i'm not around, i would love to let my heart to be read by my beloved hubby, BbieClown, My LittleRomeo. :')

Love The Way You Lie Part 2

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]
Love the way you lie

A Few Minutes Ago

Last Wednesday,

I went to RWS with my family..
It was fun & everything..
But at the same time, i was thinking abt my one & only Sanchi Tokyo..
I couldn't even get him out of my mind..
I'm running out of words how to tell him how much i miss him..
So i thought of, decorate something simple..
To show how much i really miss & love him..
I write on the Hotel's paper, saying

" Trish LOVE Sanchi 26/01/11 Always "

With a pen beside..
& rearrange to make it nicer,
& vouirla! i took a shot for it..
I upload it inside my prof, & i go thru it again..
coz i miss that pic, as i just realized,
ouh! that paper was wet..
& that photo, Sanchi was tagged by me!
i didnt even tagged him..
ku tkt kener mrh dari dier aderlah!

So on the last Friday, i came home..
& i kept on wondering, who would ever tagged that photo to him??
Till' NOW!
Few minutes ago, he was on the phone with me..
he told me everything..
that he's the one who has the initiative to tag himself only for that pic..
he was about to cry, & all his stressful, were put aside..
He told me, that it was touched..
He keep on talking about it, as my eyes fulfill with tears..
But i just kept my weakness low profile..
So he won't know that i'm crying..
If not, benci dier pat ku tau! hmmmm..

well, what do you expect??
I kept on thinkin' about him everyday & everynight..
Feeling cold like bloody hell, wish he could be there & cuddle me..
hmmm..
How i wish like that.. Haiyah... Haizz.. Sien.. Sigh.. Wahliaoww..

So dear Diary,
Praying to Allah,
All the best for him,
& hold him when I'm not around..
As he told me to sleep, to do something neccesary,
I'll listen to him good, as he listen to mine..

I'm going off to sleep...
Ssoooooo..

Goodnyte Sleeptyte Sanchi Tokyo,
My LOVE, My LIFE, My BOYFRIEND, My HUBBY, My MAN!
Don't let bed bugs byte you! :p
* except me! * hee!
:x kisses flying to your forehead
8 KISSES!
muackz! muackz! muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
muackz! muackz! muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
1123411 babistool, pandifoo!
260111 as always <3>
[30][21]
[07][08]
[93][90]

-=[ SanTrish ]=-

Wishes

i called him just now when he's outside..
i thought he's at his home area, but it wasn't..
he's outside @ City Hall, meeting his campmates, & to take my things from one of 'em..
so i asked, what time will he coming back, as he said he's otw home..
i told him, to give me a msg or a kol, once he reached home, washed his legs, & everything..
i thought he wouldn't do that..
but he just did..

with a smile on my face, i just kept quite, read his msg & knew that he could have sleep already..
so i don't want to disturb him..
another msg i received, he ask me, why am i quiet?
he thought who would otp w me at this late night, he wonders..
so i called him..
& i said, i didnt even call or talked to anyone..
im just afraid you would give me a miss call & its engage..
so i wouldn't call or pick up anyone's call..
& he "hmm"..

well, he's in pain, tired, & sleepy.. so i let him off to sleep..
so pity of him..
tomorrow, he gtgt camp early..
'coz tomorrow is his ORD day! yay!
& im so happy 4 dat.. hmm..
baby, imysm! & i cant wait 4 Sunday!
im sooo gonna hug u!!

ok diary bloggie..
im gtg..
superman wants me to sleep early..
goodnyte diary!

goodnightz bby! sweetdreamz bby!
ilysm soooooSOOOOOsoooooSOOOOOsooooo
V.E.R.Y.M.U.C.H.
:x flying to your dahi! :))
8 kisses!
muackz! mauckz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
1123411 babistool pandifoo!
260111 always <3
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[07][08]
[93][90]

SanTrish

It's Just Him

It's Just You

Sat down on the couch,
Been thinkin' & think..
About you & me,
& everything..
I'm so lost without you,
& i feel so empty..

Things so different,
Than what we used to do..
Missing for so long,
'Till i can't focus things on to..
Everything was so together at all,
I hope we could do anything, everything, together,
Just like before..

A phone rang..
It was just a message..
I open it,
& it says.....

" If i scratch your back,

You need to scratch mine..

You need to get yours,

I need to get mine.. ( song )

Baby what are you doing ?

Darling, when can we meet up ?

Been missing you for so long..

It felt so empty.. "

You made me smile,
Whenever you sent me messages like this..
But inside of me,
I feel the same,
how you felt it..
Then, another message i received..

" Without you, there's a hole in my heart..

Felt like you're gone..

Please come back to me, & fill in those gap,

in between my fingers, on my hands..

Darling, you're busy aren't you ? "

Yes, i am busy..
Busy thinkin' of you..
I've been crazy,
Thinkin' that everything will come true..

Baby you thought,
I'm okay, I'm fine..
All the problems,
Are done..
Move on my life,
That I'm goin' thru..
& I will be new..

But I'm so lost without you,
While i need to start anew..
Turning round & round,
'Till I'm nowhere to be found..
Baby, thanks for everything,
& show your gratitude..
Hoping, wishing, Praying,
That I'll be with you..
You're my only one,
& the only one I need..

iloveyou

Just A Dream - Nelly

(Uh uh uh)

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (uh)
down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (Uh)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (Yeah)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn
Trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for

More and more, I miss her, when will I learn?
Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
X2

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...
X2

One In A Million - Neyo

Jetsetter
Gogetter
Nothing better.

Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough your glow it makes your soul stand out from all the rest, baby.

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about the loot
Talking about I can't do for you
But you can do for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Diamond girl,
Only one in the world,
Just one of a kind,
She mine.

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me

Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this