Runaway Heartache

Dear blog,

How i wish i could run away to Perth. I'm willing to rip it off of my heart n gave it to someone else. It's been hurting me since not even him, understand my feelings. It's hard for me to tell. But i tried to. He understands, but maybe he didn't realize that he still do it the same mistakes. He did something that i slight don't like it. And i was heartbroke. Yes, i am jealous. It's an obvious for having relationship here. It's the same thing as what you felt if someone text me, & asked what does he wants? & he has the jealousy type as well. But i still cant understand why. :'( i wished, i want, & i hope, that he knows how my feelings were. Even i had enough understanding his. Dear blog, what should i do? I cant just let my heart have scars that won't heal. :'( I just love him so much. Please my god, write this in my heart. So if one day i'm not around, i would love to let my heart to be read by my beloved hubby, BbieClown, My LittleRomeo. :')

Love The Way You Lie Part 2

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]
Love the way you lie

A Few Minutes Ago

Last Wednesday,

I went to RWS with my family..
It was fun & everything..
But at the same time, i was thinking abt my one & only Sanchi Tokyo..
I couldn't even get him out of my mind..
I'm running out of words how to tell him how much i miss him..
So i thought of, decorate something simple..
To show how much i really miss & love him..
I write on the Hotel's paper, saying

" Trish LOVE Sanchi 26/01/11 Always "

With a pen beside..
& rearrange to make it nicer,
& vouirla! i took a shot for it..
I upload it inside my prof, & i go thru it again..
coz i miss that pic, as i just realized,
ouh! that paper was wet..
& that photo, Sanchi was tagged by me!
i didnt even tagged him..
ku tkt kener mrh dari dier aderlah!

So on the last Friday, i came home..
& i kept on wondering, who would ever tagged that photo to him??
Till' NOW!
Few minutes ago, he was on the phone with me..
he told me everything..
that he's the one who has the initiative to tag himself only for that pic..
he was about to cry, & all his stressful, were put aside..
He told me, that it was touched..
He keep on talking about it, as my eyes fulfill with tears..
But i just kept my weakness low profile..
So he won't know that i'm crying..
If not, benci dier pat ku tau! hmmmm..

well, what do you expect??
I kept on thinkin' about him everyday & everynight..
Feeling cold like bloody hell, wish he could be there & cuddle me..
hmmm..
How i wish like that.. Haiyah... Haizz.. Sien.. Sigh.. Wahliaoww..

So dear Diary,
Praying to Allah,
All the best for him,
& hold him when I'm not around..
As he told me to sleep, to do something neccesary,
I'll listen to him good, as he listen to mine..

I'm going off to sleep...
Ssoooooo..

Goodnyte Sleeptyte Sanchi Tokyo,
My LOVE, My LIFE, My BOYFRIEND, My HUBBY, My MAN!
Don't let bed bugs byte you! :p
* except me! * hee!
:x kisses flying to your forehead
8 KISSES!
muackz! muackz! muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
muackz! muackz! muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
1123411 babistool, pandifoo!
260111 as always <3>
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-=[ SanTrish ]=-

Wishes

i called him just now when he's outside..
i thought he's at his home area, but it wasn't..
he's outside @ City Hall, meeting his campmates, & to take my things from one of 'em..
so i asked, what time will he coming back, as he said he's otw home..
i told him, to give me a msg or a kol, once he reached home, washed his legs, & everything..
i thought he wouldn't do that..
but he just did..

with a smile on my face, i just kept quite, read his msg & knew that he could have sleep already..
so i don't want to disturb him..
another msg i received, he ask me, why am i quiet?
he thought who would otp w me at this late night, he wonders..
so i called him..
& i said, i didnt even call or talked to anyone..
im just afraid you would give me a miss call & its engage..
so i wouldn't call or pick up anyone's call..
& he "hmm"..

well, he's in pain, tired, & sleepy.. so i let him off to sleep..
so pity of him..
tomorrow, he gtgt camp early..
'coz tomorrow is his ORD day! yay!
& im so happy 4 dat.. hmm..
baby, imysm! & i cant wait 4 Sunday!
im sooo gonna hug u!!

ok diary bloggie..
im gtg..
superman wants me to sleep early..
goodnyte diary!

goodnightz bby! sweetdreamz bby!
ilysm soooooSOOOOOsoooooSOOOOOsooooo
V.E.R.Y.M.U.C.H.
:x flying to your dahi! :))
8 kisses!
muackz! mauckz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
muackz! muackz!
:x:x:x:x! :x:x:x:x!
1123411 babistool pandifoo!
260111 always <3
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SanTrish

It's Just Him

It's Just You

Sat down on the couch,
Been thinkin' & think..
About you & me,
& everything..
I'm so lost without you,
& i feel so empty..

Things so different,
Than what we used to do..
Missing for so long,
'Till i can't focus things on to..
Everything was so together at all,
I hope we could do anything, everything, together,
Just like before..

A phone rang..
It was just a message..
I open it,
& it says.....

" If i scratch your back,

You need to scratch mine..

You need to get yours,

I need to get mine.. ( song )

Baby what are you doing ?

Darling, when can we meet up ?

Been missing you for so long..

It felt so empty.. "

You made me smile,
Whenever you sent me messages like this..
But inside of me,
I feel the same,
how you felt it..
Then, another message i received..

" Without you, there's a hole in my heart..

Felt like you're gone..

Please come back to me, & fill in those gap,

in between my fingers, on my hands..

Darling, you're busy aren't you ? "

Yes, i am busy..
Busy thinkin' of you..
I've been crazy,
Thinkin' that everything will come true..

Baby you thought,
I'm okay, I'm fine..
All the problems,
Are done..
Move on my life,
That I'm goin' thru..
& I will be new..

But I'm so lost without you,
While i need to start anew..
Turning round & round,
'Till I'm nowhere to be found..
Baby, thanks for everything,
& show your gratitude..
Hoping, wishing, Praying,
That I'll be with you..
You're my only one,
& the only one I need..

iloveyou

Just A Dream - Nelly

(Uh uh uh)

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (uh)
down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (Uh)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (Yeah)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn
Trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for

More and more, I miss her, when will I learn?
Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
X2

I was thinkin' 'bout her
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Opening my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she coming back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...
X2

One In A Million - Neyo

Jetsetter
Gogetter
Nothing better.

Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough your glow it makes your soul stand out from all the rest, baby.

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about the loot
Talking about I can't do for you
But you can do for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Diamond girl,
Only one in the world,
Just one of a kind,
She mine.

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me

Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

It's Him

HIM

im so happy that i get to talk to him..
im so relieve when i heard his voice..
it feels like im getting closer to him..

well, now, im not asleep yet!
yeash... still not..
'coz of doing some transanction..
hmm.. headache ah..
saket tau kpaler ku ni..
sigh..

ok there's a good news that i just received from him yesterday night..
but its personel..
nyahaz!
i cant wait that it will happen!
hurhur!

hmmmmm....
sigh.. the ring..
still always reminding of him..
every night, & every pray that i prayed,
hope for the best, that his safety come 1st..
& for the rest, of our life, hoping that we can stay true n stay together forever..
make it happen for our reality..
just win it baby..

i know we can do it..
we can go thru every steps, in everyday,
that we will find our way..
all the things, we've gone so far,
please don't let it waste..
'coz i wanna make it memory,
make it last, till no air that i can breathe..

i'll love you forever, no matter what happens..
i'll prove to you that they're wrong, with what they say about me..
just believe me, n trust..
that everything we do, must & will last..

~ SanTrishyoko ~

My only one

[ MY ONLY ONE ]

To my Dearest Hubby : SANCHI'Z TOKYO

i miss what we've done..
everything is so together..
boy how i wish we could be together like last time..
i miss the times,

we eat together..
work n play..
you sick, i take care of you..
im sick, you concern about me, eventhough you're not beside me..
i wish we could turn the time back..
im so lost with what im doing..
its so not us..
baby, its so different when you're not around..

i kept remembering when i sleep at night..
always makes me cry..
the ring that i wearing right now, keeps shining to my eyes..
how he really likes the diamond..
n i chose it from the list..
the names n dates were engraved on it..

the bear you bought for me,
im so touched..
im loving it..
but, ended up, it has to be with you..
a favour from me..
like how i used to accompany him,
i request for you to do it the same like how i do it..

when i didnt get to hug you, i hug him..
i pretend it was you..
so i noe, that you, me, never be alone..
sigh.. i wish that we could come back forever together, in reality..

so i could
wash your clothes again,
wake you up every morning..
prepare for your camp stuffs..
give you something to bite for your breakfast..
cook for ya..
massage when your leg is cramp..
calm you when you're in bad temper..
walk for you thru n fro when you cant get up..
listen to you good when listen mine..

im happy that you proud of yourself, as you change me, bring me where my home is..
you made me think of, & taught me everything..
your temper, your care, your love, your everything,
cherish you & treasure you, like how you are doing right now to me..
memories will always in my mind..
your name, will always locked isinde my heart..
n i crossed my heart, that i'll never change my love for ya..

1123411 babistool pandifoo!
260111 always..
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~ SanTrish ~

to MAYA!!

CLUB EVENT

SMOOVE PRESENTS : ( POKER TOURNAMENT SHOWDOWN )
11th June, SURGE @ SENTOSA AZZURA!!!

The hottest party this upcoming June hols!! So mark this date!!
Get your BIKINIS & BOARDSHORT already!! &
PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG!!

Doors OPEN : 7PM onwards
Tix : 25 SGD

FOR TICKET RESERVATIONS / QUERIES, CONTACT :

TRISHYOKO aka TRISH BEDOK @ 93360548 / 83062516

SEE YOU THERE!

we've been friends since 2003 till now, still present. I've not seen her yet till now. I miss her badly. I wonder what she's doing right now. Well she did call me last Fri.

She did told me about the time we collide to each other at Bedok Mac. At night, she called me. She told me that she apologized to me 'cos of not being there with me. That she's always busy with her Secondary School mates. When she apologized to me just 'cos of that, i cried in disguised. My heart were calmed when she said that. But lucky, she didn't realize that i was crying. hehe!

But now, i wished i could see her again, talking to her. Take her to follow me & accompany me to somewhere beatiful. Which is night-lights, talking to her how much i miss my mother, how much i miss her, & how's my life like.

And we can take alot of our pictures, laughing out loud, & be crazy every min & every sec.

If you still can recognize this pic, i will be honoured. Same as people outside, if you see my bestfriend since childhood, please do tell her that I, Trish, do miss her alot. & please ask her don't forget to give me a call.

Yours sincerely,

Trishyoko

Monday
19/04/'10
0010 hrs

nak tgk lagik???

AMEK KO!! NYAHAHAHAHAHAZZZZ!!!!!!

The Couz

PERFECT N IMPERFECT

WE ARE NOT PERFECT.. THIS WHAT WE GET FROM THE PERSON UP THERE... SOME PEOPLE RESPECT GOD BUT SOME RESPECT SATAN OR MAYBE SOME NEITHER BOTH.. BUT WE MUST REMEMBER THAT WHAT WE HAD IS FROM THE PERSON UP THERE... I MAY BE DEVIL SO DO U, BUT I STILL REMEMBER OF WHAT I CREATED TO N FROM WHO..

OUR CHARACTER N SKILLS IS DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE, BUT LET ME ASK U.. "WOULDN'T BE BORED IF WHAT WE HAD WITH US, IS D SAME AS OTHERS?" I CAN SAY THAT, OUR CHARACTER IS FROM OUR PARENTS OR 1 OF OUR FAMILIES..

NEW FRIENDS ARE LOVED.. DON'T CARE WHETHER W/W/O TATTOOS, W/W/O WHAT I HATE/LOVE.. THIS IS WHO WE ARE.. NEW FRIENDS WONT BITE EACH OTHER.. I HATE EMOES, BUT I'M A FRIENDLY PERSON.. IF U DO NEGATIVE THINGS, THEN I'LL DO NEGATIVE THINGS 2 U 2... IF I DID WRONG, I WOULD SAY PAISEY/SORRY..

THINK TWICE BEFORE U WANNA JUDGE PEOPLE.. SOME PEOPLE HAS PRETTY FACE BUT ISSIT ALL SHE OR HE HAD IS PERFECT?

PEOPLE PANIC WHENEVER THEY SAW GHOST OR WHATEVER WEIRD THINGS HAPPEN.. ITS JUST A NORMAL STUFF.. EITHER U DO WRONG N U SAW IT OR U HAD A GIFT.. I CAN TELL THAT I DON'T HAVE SENSE OF SEEING GHOST BUT I HAS A SENSE OF FEELING GHOST..

PEOPLE FIND FAULTS 2 ME N WANNA START WITH ME... BUT I IGNORED... BUT MAYBE SOMETIMES, THEY JUST MAKE ME ANGRY TILL MY BLOOD RISE... N I DECIDED 2 STAND UP N BE STRONG... I WONT FIND FAULTS WITH OTHER PEOPLE... LIKE WHAT I SAID, IF I START WITH D WRONG PEOPLE, I JUST SAY PAISEY/SORRY... PEOPLE WHO THINKS HE/SHE FEELS STRONGER, N THEY KNOW THEIR OWN KNOWLEDGE, THEY WONT START WITH A SMALL/UNDERAGE THAN THEM... IF THEY ARE REALLY BEING LIKE THAT, THEN I CAN SAY THAT THEY ARE REALLY2 MATURED...

SO IF U BEING BULLIED BY SOMEONE WHO IS BIGGER THAN UR SIZE, JUST THINK THIS, "THEY ARE SCARED N THEY ARE NOT MATURED... THEY REALLY ARE A SCARY CAT"... SO JUST GO AHEAD, JUST THINK WHAT EVER U WANNA THINK... THINK OF YOURSELF.. THINK ABOUT D POSITIVE NOT D NEGATIVE...

PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO THINKS SO PERFECT, THEN PROVE IT.. N 1 LAST THING IS, MIRROR YOURSELF WHETHER ARE U SO PERFECT THEN D IMPERFECT?? N FOR THOSE WHO THINKS SO PERFECT, DON'T TIL U MAKE OTHER PEOPLE THINKS U SO STUPID..

SO PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT THINK U R IMPERFECT,

STAND UP STRAIGHT N GO FOR IT...

JUST DREAM UR GOAL N U WILL REACH IT..

GOTHIC GAL ~TrIsH~

The Day That I've Risk My Life For

THE DAY DAT I'VE RISK MY LIFE 4...

the day dat i've suffer my life...

my day...

my happiness...

my strezzful...

my hopefullnezz...

but den d dae came... i feel like i've been more strezzlezz... coz i noe dat somebody of mine waz gone 4ever... d god haz rizk d lifez...

My gOd BrO...

((xMY GOD BROx))

before he being my god bro..

i loved him very much...

i dun wanna 4get him n loose him...

but i cant stand it anymore so by steading wif him...

i'd rather be hiz god sis...

well he iz quite FASCINATING...

he iz quite KIND-HEARTED...

he iz quite CARING...

he iz quite LOVELY...

but lazt n for all...

he iz quite AMAZING...

by the time i waz chatting wif him...

i felt so FRESH...

n it waz running out of time...

n i have 2 go...

but hehe i said 2 him...

bye bye take care i miss u n i love u owaez...

n i felt like 'WTH' ???!!!...

so datz d story abt me...

mY BrOthErz hAtez

mY BrOthErz hAtez

hmm my bro he alwayz hatez 2 SIDEZ one each other...
he juz LOVEZ 2 dizturbz ppl...
i HATE him very much...
he iz my worst nightmare BUT not as worst as my nightmare...
i WISH i can get rid of him inside my mind...
he alwayz lovez 2 DIZTURBZ ppl till going into madnezz...
i WANTED him 2 be a good boy and be so hopefull...
he iz d WORST person dat i have ever have...
i will KILL him in my dreamz even if d dae he dizturbz me...
im going into MADNESS!!!!!!

LosT GaL

LozT GaL

+_+ diz iz me +_+

***i have a name that is TRISH DRIANNA***

***i have things which was not complete that is LIFE***

***i have myself as student that is LOST***

***i have believe which was gone that is MIRACLE***

***i have a relationship which was great that is BELIEVER***

***i have a truly miserable things was lost that is PROPHET***

***i have a dream which alwayz true that is NIGHTMARE***

***i have a bestie who alwayz beside me that is FAMILY***

***i have a family which alwayz forget each other that is SADNESS***